My midwife made me feel much better though
I felt like I was letting everyone (including myself) down by being induced.
She really helps make me feel better and told me there was no judgment and that if she was as pregnant as I was she’d probably do the same thing.
She said… Everyone is different. There will be some moms who can make it to 43 weeks and that’s great for them. But we each have our own limits. Our bodys tell us things, and if you’re feeling like you can’t take it anymore, it’s probably because your body can’t take it anymore, and it needs a little help. You don’t need to feel ashamed because you need help. You should feel proud that you’re strong enough to make it this far, and strong enough to say ‘okay I’ve had enough’ because not many woman can even make it to 42 weeks. You’re doing amazing, you’ve done everything right. You just need some help and that’s perfectly fine.
And idk
I feel a lot better now.
I’m sill going to do everything in my power to get this baby out naturally and so I can have the birth I wanted.
But the fact that I might have to be induced isn’t a sad thing for me anymore. Even though it’s not the way I WANTED to do things, it might just the way I have to.
And that’s okay :3
Mathew just put EPO in my vag for me.
Because I have little fingers and I can’t get it in as deep as it needs to be.
When someone will put things in you vagina for you..
That’s love
I just don’t know how much longer I SHOULD wait.
When I go in on Monday I’ll be 42 weeks, and we’ll plan for an induction.
what day should I plan for?
Should I try and wait longer? should I have them plan it for Wednesday or Thursday? (January 2 or 3rd)
or is that too soon? (that will be 42 weeks + 2-3)
Should I plan for like Saturday or Sunday (January 5 or 6th) that will put me at (pretty much) 43 weeks.
or is waiting that long too unsafe
I just don’t know how long I should wait.
I just want my baby to be healthy.
Oh hey look at that, more bleeding stretchmarks.
Honestly I feel like Ellia is trying to break out of my stomach by ripping it apart.
I’m so scared to see how my body looks when I’m done being pregnant.
Although, it feels like I’m never going to be done being pregnant…
all people keep saying to me is “Omg why are they letting you go so late?! why aren’t you being induced?! when are they inducing you?!?! INDUCE INDUCE INDUCE”
Yes she’s 11 days late.
maybe my baby isn’t done cooking yet.
she’ll come when she’s ready
shes still healthy and getting lots of food from inside of me
why would i force her out before she’s ready?
I hate how “natural” it is for people to get induced
it’s so annoying
Also midwife appointment today
Fingers crossed that they’ll do a natural TYPE induction (meaning no pitocin or other drugs)
Fingers crossed that we’ll be able to set an induction date!
If not I’m going to go crazy.
I didn’t want to be induced at all at first but now…
I honestly believe my body just needs a hint. A little nudge in the right direction. To get things started.
I wanted a completely natural birth, but.. It’s natural to need help. :)
Well i just took 2 tbs of Castor oil.
When I took 1 last time it did nothing for me didn’t even make me go to the bathroom.
I just took it like a champ this time.
Mixed it with some really really chocolate milk and just CHUGGED
then brushed my teeth to get the nasty taste out lol
lets hope this does something because I need my baby like ASAP.